I have these same thoughts…sometimes my arms are all cut up. I can’t help it.
They are getting louder and clearer…
You don’t deserve to live
Swallow those 2478 pills in your bedroom
No one will miss you
Stop fucking around with the arms you pussy, cut your throat and get it over with
The thoughts and the background noise are getting louder and clearer. Sometimes listening to music will distract them for a while, but they come back. I know they aren’t really there, that the voices are not real but they are hard to ignore. My rational mind tells me that it is just my mental illness manifesting in a different way.
My irrational, impulsive mind tells me to follow them.
I need it to stop.